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Dad is depressed about the Doctor's report...Totally Understandable. The thing is that he really doesn't understand. He wants to know if he can exercise to strengthen his heart. We talk to the cardiologist on the 17th. I'd like him to travel, but I have no funds to pay for trips and the cousins are not traveling the way they did before. I need to think of day trips. Maybe King Richards...he has said he wanted to go, but it was also something I did with friends so I am on the fence.
I also want to do things while I can. Even if it's going on a short trip or overnight.
Work is coming up to Month end reporting again. I hope I can do it faster. I did it in 4 days in June. Sadly July and August had obstacles. I also found out that the boss is taking a few Mondays off and will be coming in days that I work remote. Oh boy. It may be for the best.
Once I talk to the cardiologist I am going to call HR and see about signing up for the family leave act where you cannot be punished for talking your family to various Dr. Appointments. I will also talk to be coworkers about mailing any checks I print while I am remote. The address is on the check, they just have to pop it in an envelope.
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Thank fuck I could call L. on my cell phone and they let me hang out at their house till I could take a bus back home.
Then I could only get about 3 or 4 hours sleep because PG&E would not stop fucking calling me on my home phone.
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tuesday

"It's Raining". Quite possibly one of the dumbest pictures I've ever made. I used one of those prepainted cards that I made for reverse coloring. I was sitting in the truck yesterday waiting for Dave to talk to someone when I started to draw on it and finished it today.
The book The Artist's Way keeps coming to my mind lately so I started to read a sample on kindle this morning. I had bought the actual book years ago but couldn't find it and I wanted to refresh my memory. Write your Morning Pages. Make an Artist Date with yourself. I really liked doing art-a-day back when I was doing that. I felt accomplished, just doing the one little artwork, no matter how dumb it was. When I get these mosaic mirrors done I think I will go back to that again.
I keep having David Z in my dreams. I had another one last night. I think it's because he's a person I know who had a pacemaker and I'm starting to wonder now if that is what I'm going to need. I can't remember much of the dream now except that he wanted me to get something from his room. It was very dark and there were no lights that could be turned on. Other people were sleeping in the room and I didn't want to wake them. He told me where to look and I was feeling around on a dresser to find whatever it was. I couldn't find it. In another part of the dream I was at a convention and I shit myself in the hotel lobby. I was naked and running to the bathroom and didn't make it. So shit fell on the floor. I went back with some toilet paper to clean it up. By then I had my clothes on. There was a lady there taking a photo of the shit on the floor. She was taking the picture because she was disgusted and wanted to publish it online to show what a shitty hotel it was. But then I came up and took responsibility for it and was cleaning it up and that took the wind out of her sails - she was embarrassed that she had been such a karen. Shit happens.
Sitting at the moment in my car writing this on my phone while I wait for Dave to get his eye shot. Drinking a McD's iced coffee. I get so sleepy while I wait for him. Thought it would help, and it did.
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There is a holdup in getting my apartment built - my daughter is waiting for a third quote because the first one was much higher than the architect had estimated and the second one was much higher again. (I'm guessing this inflation of the prices is due to you-know-who's tariffs.) Getting a quote takes weeks and weeks because the contractor has to quote individually for every single item rather than just making a blanket estimate. I can understand why, but it does make the process frustratingly slow.
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June 2025 Blog Prompts
2. What is one thing that happened today that you really want to remember 10 years from now? I’ve really just spent the day mostly on errandy stuff, e.g. laundry and sorting through receipts, none of which is memorable. The news is full of one Trumpist outrage after another and I’d like to think that will all be over long before 10 years from now. So, frankly, I got nothing.
3. Are you happy with my job, life, and situation? What parts are good? What parts are bad? What a badly phrased question. I’m reasonably happy with my life, but know nothing about yours. The major thing I need to work on is decluttering my living room.
4. Where would you go to relax and why? I’d love to spend a week or so at the Sylvia Beach Hotel in Newport, Oregon. I’d probably choose the Agatha Christie room.
5. What trait did you admire in a relative, friend, classmate, or coworker today? I’m proud of one of my friends for writing honestly about her mental health struggles and what she’s been doing to address them.
6. What is the weather like today? How do you feel about it? I think the weather in June was hot and muggy. But the weather right now is quite pleasant, sunny with a high in the mid-70’s Fahrenheit.
7. What's the most difficult part about being you? I have high standards that I can’t always live up to.
8. Good or bad, what is your hometown best known for? Uh, there were a few couple of famous mafiosi who lived there. And also one former U.S. Senator.
9. Describe an incident at a beauty or barber shop. Does getting a chocolate pedicure at the spa at the Hotel Hershey count? Or, even better, the fish pedicure I once got?
10. What musical instrument(s) do you play or wish you could play? I took several years of piano lessons off and on. I also did two years of viola in elementary school. I’ve fooled around with various other instruments, ranging from the accordion to the tin whistle to the bowed psaltery over the years. But (to steal a joke from my Dad) my best instrument is the stereo system. I wish I could play the didgeridoo, but I've never been able to make sense of circular breathing.
11. Tell about one of your first away-from-home experiences. I went to three different summer camps. Two of them were relatively normal. The one that I went to for two summers in a row is the source of some of my best stories, since it was run by a socialist zionist organization and we had events like Capitalist Day.
12. What makes you feel safe? I guess I feel safest in familiar environments, but that includes places like home (duh!) and comfortable hotels and many major cities. Frankly, I rarely feel unsafe.
13. Have you ever been to a surprise party? Was it for you or someone else? Was it a good surprise? I don’t remember anyone ever throwing a surprise party for me, but I did go to a few surprise parties for other people when I was a teenager. The best one was for two people whose birthdays were close in time. (Their birthdays may have been the same day, but I don’t remember.) At any rate, the host told Marc it was a surprise party for Vicki and told Vicki it was a surprise party for Marc and gave them arrival times about 15 minutes apart.
14. What does abundance mean to you? Abundance is just a step beyond enough. There is a step beyond abundance that is really too much, e.g. the quantities of books and of yarn in my house.
15. Name 3 friends that shaped your childhood. My best friend for several years was Kathy, who lived down the street from me and who I spent part of nearly every day with. We spent our time listening to music, playing hopscotch, hanging out in our secret place (a clearing in the middle of an empty lot, which later became a shopping center), and memorizing things like “Jabberwocky.” I was also very close to Norman, who I shared a crayon box with in elementary school. I remember being the only girl at his birthday party one year in elementary school. And, hmm, Carol was one of the two other girls in my Hebrew school class and was the first peer who told me what getting a period was like. Her exact comment was “it’s literally a pain in the ass.”
16. If you suddenly had an extra room in your house, what would you do with it? I’d like it to be an art and music room, with a piano and shelves for my yarn stash.
17. What needs to be true for you to feel empowered to speak up in a group? I really don’t have any hesitation in speaking up in a group.
18. Describe your ideal book club. My long-standing book club works for me because: 1) we read a wide variety of books, 2) everybody actually reads the book, and 3) we talk about the book instead of just general chitchat,
19. What’s your favourite animated movie? I have a long-standing fondness for Fantasia, which I think was one of the first movies I ever saw. But I also have a soft spot in my heart for The Aristocats.
20. What’s the biggest life decision you’ve ever made? How did it affect you? Choosing to go to MIT opened up a lot of opportunities for me. I made that decision because I knew so many people who had decided to change their majors from what they originally planned and I was reasonably sure anything I chose to do would be in the math / science realm. (I’ve often joked that my brother holds the Michigan State record for changing majors.) This worked well since I had originally planned to major in chemistry and ended up in mechanical engineering. And, while I found Dartmouth very attractive, I felt that I wanted to live in a city, rather than a rural area.
21. What is your favourite vegetable? There are many vegetables I like, but I think I’ll opt for carrots, due to their versatility. I particularly like roasted carrots with a tahini glaze. But I also use carrots in stir fries and make carrot-ginger soup.
22. Which disease known to humankind do you hate the most? Explain why. I’ve lost too many people I cared about to various forms of cancer.
23. What would be your ideal birthday present, and why? I am much more about experiences than about things, so I’d suggest theatre or concert tickets.
24. This morning, when you got out of bed, you ….. Before bed tonight, you will…. These are pretty much the same every day. When I get out of bed, I do my various daily puzzles, starting with the New York Times crossword. Before I go to bed, I read for at least half an hour.
25. Who would you most like to be like if you could change your personality? Maybe Mallory Lewis, the daughter of Shari Lewis. She puppets Lamb Chop, so has a fun sassy alter ego.
26. What are some colors you see the most in your every day life? I’ve been using blue bed linens lately, so that should be right up there. I tend to wear a lot of black and red, so those should also be on the list. And my furniture is mostly wood, so you can throw in brown, which is a color I rarely wear.
27. What is your most prized possession? I have a necklace that my great-grandmother allegedly bought in Shanghai. I am skeptical of that story, but it’s still a necklace I like a lot.
28. What animals frighten you and why? Having grown up on Long Island, sharks are at the top of my scary list, followed by polar bears. I also tend to be leery of certain breeds of large dogs, though I’m fine with others. I suspect that dates back to a neighbor who was attacked as a child and had an ear bitten off.
29. What kind of fairytale creature would you be? I think I am well-suited to be either a fairy godmother or the wise woman who lives at the edge of the forest.
30. What is an exciting or crazy trip you have taken? Before my 40th birthday, I took a leave of absence from work and spent 6 months traveling on overland trucks through Africa, followed by taking the Saint Helena mail ship from Cape Town to the U.K.
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Shoe hopes
So last week, after aqua yoga, I sent the Fitness Director a note explaining why I wasn't going to go back (boring, cold because no movement, too much breathing, not enough stretching). She responded by asking if they class made changes would I reconsider? I told her I'd try it once.
Honestly, I could tell within the first 5 minutes that I would be a class regular again. Lots of stretching and moving. My back felt really energized and so did I. 200% better. But, of course, next Monday is Labor Day, so no class. Sigh.
This morning was the first volleyball morning that I really needed to have lights on when I got up. Nice. It's still hot out but at least it's hot for a shorter period of time.
Today is house cleaner day and also time to start making some Halloween themed dolls and creatures. Steve asked me this morning if I'd ramped that up yet and I guess now is the time.
Two ball games but the first isn't until 4.

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A quiet day
This morning I made my moves in the Kingdom of Loathing. As my computer was running a bit slow I rebooted it which seemed to improve things. I then cycled to Spalding and had a half of Green Jack's 'Gone Fishing' in the Ivy Wall before doing some shopping.
This afternoon I made my moves in RavenBlack's Vampire Game.
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And the end of de minimis comes crashing in
Trump abolished the de minimus rule which meant packages up to $800 could come into the US with no tariffs, and this comes into effect (AS FAR AS WE KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT ANYTHING TRUMP SAYS) on August 29.
As a result, almost 30 countries, including mine, have now suspended package delivery to the US, because nobody knows how this stupid tariff thing is going to work or how to handle it. This applies to mailed packages, not container-loads of stuff that come in. The suspension is currently indefinite, because mail cannot resume until systems have been worked out and currently the US has not supplied enough detail for that to happen.
So if you're in the US and you ordered something recently from overseas and were expecting it in the mail, that's not going to happen anytime soon.
So much winning.
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Interesting Links for 26-08-2025
- 1. Consultation opens on Edinburgh's proposed new tram line
- (tags:edinburgh trams consultation )
- 2. How to justify colonialism, Julius Caesar edition
- (tags:history comic morality )
- 3. Trump is turning into Liz Truss but with more dictatorial behaviour
- (tags:USA economics authoritarianism doom )
- 4. OpenAI Usage Plummets in the Summer, When Students Aren't Cheating on Homework
- (tags:ai students )
- 5. Fixing the voting system brings in more women representatives
- (tags:women politics voting reform )
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I was about to go out for a walk around 6:30 am yesterday when Aria appeared in my room. (Everybody else was still asleep.) When I told her I was going for a walk she dashed upstairs, threw on some clothes, came back, and declared she wanted to go with me. We went out and I assumed that she would only want to walk around the block and then I could go for a longer walk by myself, but at every corner, instead of turning toward home she said no, go that way (away from home). Eventually, after about half an hour, she suddenly decided that she wanted to go home, and somehow she got some extra energy and we were home in about ten or 15 minutes.
After breakfast I went for another walk, this time with Eden and Aria, to what they call the pond, a few blocks from their house. I get very nervous when they want me to take them there because it has fairly steep sides and no fencing or flat area along the edge of the water and it would be way too easy for someone to overbalance into the water. And both girls like to get right down to the edge of the water to try to see fish. However, nobody fell in, and anyway, all the girls can now swim and it's not very deep at the edges anyway.
Much later in the day, after dinner, I went for yet another walk, this time with Aria riding her bike. She has just recently learnt to ride without training wheels but still doesn't have perfect riding skills so that was a bit nerve wracking as well. She wanted to ride back to the pond, so we did, but this time we spent a lot of time finding black walnuts on the ground and seeing how far we could throw them into the water, and admiring the intersecting rings of ripples. That was fun.
Today it's back to school day.
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Yesterday while I was visiting my friend's brother got the call that he had prostate cancer. He doesn't know what state it is. Cancer Sucks.
Mississippi legal challenge: beginning 1 September, we will need to geoblock Mississippi IPs
I'll start with the tl;dr summary to make sure everyone sees it and then explain further: As of September 1, we will temporarily be forced to block access to Dreamwidth from all IP addresses that geolocate to Mississippi for legal reasons. This block will need to continue until we either win the legal case entirely, or the district court issues another injunction preventing Mississippi from enforcing their social media age verification and parental consent law against us.
Mississippi residents, we are so, so sorry. We really don't want to do this, but the legal fight we and Netchoice have been fighting for you had a temporary setback last week. We genuinely and honestly believe that we're going to win it in the end, but the Fifth Circuit appellate court said that the district judge was wrong to issue the preliminary injunction back in June that would have maintained the status quo and prevented the state from enforcing the law requiring any social media website (which is very broadly defined, and which we definitely qualify as) to deanonymize and age-verify all users and obtain parental permission from the parent of anyone under 18 who wants to open an account.
Netchoice took that appellate ruling up to the Supreme Court, who declined to overrule the Fifth Circuit with no explanation -- except for Justice Kavanaugh agreeing that we are likely to win the fight in the end, but saying that it's no big deal to let the state enforce the law in the meantime.
Needless to say, it's a big deal to let the state enforce the law in the meantime. The Mississippi law is a breathtaking state overreach: it forces us to verify the identity and age of every person who accesses Dreamwidth from the state of Mississippi and determine who's under the age of 18 by collecting identity documents, to save that highly personal and sensitive information, and then to obtain a permission slip from those users' parents to allow them to finish creating an account. It also forces us to change our moderation policies and stop anyone under 18 from accessing a wide variety of legal and beneficial speech because the state of Mississippi doesn't like it -- which, given the way Dreamwidth works, would mean blocking people from talking about those things at all. (And if you think you know exactly what kind of content the state of Mississippi doesn't like, you're absolutely right.)
Needless to say, we don't want to do that, either. Even if we wanted to, though, we can't: the resources it would take for us to build the systems that would let us do it are well beyond our capacity. You can read the sworn declaration I provided to the court for some examples of how unworkable these requirements are in practice. (That isn't even everything! The lawyers gave me a page limit!)
Unfortunately, the penalties for failing to comply with the Mississippi law are incredibly steep: fines of $10,000 per user from Mississippi who we don't have identity documents verifying age for, per incident -- which means every time someone from Mississippi loaded Dreamwidth, we'd potentially owe Mississippi $10,000. Even a single $10,000 fine would be rough for us, but the per-user, per-incident nature of the actual fine structure is an existential threat. And because we're part of the organization suing Mississippi over it, and were explicitly named in the now-overturned preliminary injunction, we think the risk of the state deciding to engage in retaliatory prosecution while the full legal challenge continues to work its way through the courts is a lot higher than we're comfortable with. Mississippi has been itching to issue those fines for a while, and while normally we wouldn't worry much because we're a small and obscure site, the fact that we've been yelling at them in court about the law being unconstitutional means the chance of them lumping us in with the big social media giants and trying to fine us is just too high for us to want to risk it. (The excellent lawyers we've been working with are Netchoice's lawyers, not ours!)
All of this means we've made the extremely painful decision that our only possible option for the time being is to block Mississippi IP addresses from accessing Dreamwidth, until we win the case. (And I repeat: I am absolutely incredibly confident we'll win the case. And apparently Justice Kavanaugh agrees!) I repeat: I am so, so sorry. This is the last thing we wanted to do, and I've been fighting my ass off for the last three years to prevent it. But, as everyone who follows the legal system knows, the Fifth Circuit is gonna do what it's gonna do, whether or not what they want to do has any relationship to the actual law.
We don't collect geolocation information ourselves, and we have no idea which of our users are residents of Mississippi. (We also don't want to know that, unless you choose to tell us.) Because of that, and because access to highly accurate geolocation databases is extremely expensive, our only option is to use our network provider's geolocation-based blocking to prevent connections from IP addresses they identify as being from Mississippi from even reaching Dreamwidth in the first place. I have no idea how accurate their geolocation is, and it's possible that some people not in Mississippi might also be affected by this block. (The inaccuracy of geolocation is only, like, the 27th most important reason on the list of "why this law is practically impossible for any site to comply with, much less a tiny site like us".)
If your IP address is identified as coming from Mississippi, beginning on September 1, you'll see a shorter, simpler version of this message and be unable to proceed to the site itself. If you would otherwise be affected, but you have a VPN or proxy service that masks your IP address and changes where your connection appears to come from, you won't get the block message, and you can keep using Dreamwidth the way you usually would.
On a completely unrelated note while I have you all here, have I mentioned lately that I really like ProtonVPN's service, privacy practices, and pricing? They also have a free tier available that, although limited to one device, has no ads or data caps and doesn't log your activity, unlike most of the free VPN services out there. VPNs are an excellent privacy and security tool that every user of the internet should be familiar with! We aren't affiliated with Proton and we don't get any kickbacks if you sign up with them, but I'm a satisfied customer and I wanted to take this chance to let you know that.
Again, we're so incredibly sorry to have to make this announcement, and I personally promise you that I will continue to fight this law, and all of the others like it that various states are passing, with every inch of the New Jersey-bred stubborn fightiness you've come to know and love over the last 16 years. The instant we think it's less legally risky for us to allow connections from Mississippi IP addresses, we'll undo the block and let you know.
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SPEAKING OF WRITING, guess who's still failing to turn out anything worth the time it takes to force it onto a page? It's me! I'm so mad at myself. The ideas are there. Even a lot of the words are there. I don't understand why I can't make things happen.
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(embarking on the day, executive function, gardening, harvest, goals)
I've been ungrounded off and on the past few weeks. Goal #1 for tomorrow is to manage my morning so i can sit with Christine for ten minutes and meditate. I've shifted my "warning" alarm ten minutes earlier so hopefully i will get up from morning computer time in time for that and the rest of getting ready for work.
Stretch goal is to get my ten minute walk in.
Figs are coming in quickly. I tried making fig jam on Sunday but have more of a fig syrup. 2 pint jars, 3 12 oz jars and an 8 oz jar. (One of the 12 oz didn't seal and is in the fridge.) I am pondering that maybe i just didn't get it hot enough and i should reprocess. Or, i dunno, wait try again with More Figs, since these are at least preserved for the time being.
Weather is shifting and working outside is imaginable. I've actually got radishes, beets, spinach, and collards started in one bed (that i should probably protect from deer soon). I started weeding some of the beds in the fenced garden area -- i will seed that soon, too, with winter plants. Although i should probably amend the soil before that. It's still too hot for lettuce to germinate, but i started some inside. goals
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RIP
All politicians have their failures, bad moves, and detractors, but it's sad how "he's not a bad person, I just don't agree with him" is a normal statement that's considered radical now. I wonder what the history books kids are reading now are saying about this...
DW keeps shitting itself when I embed more videos, so here's Obama's eulogy and Biden's eulogy. Obama was a pretty average / "baseline" president, but I thought it was incredibly mature of McCain to invite his opponents to his funeral. Note how Trump and Ms. Palin weren't there...
I was hoping to have a rewritten review of Game Change back on my site by now, but I'm low energy and hit with post-con depression to want to chip at any HTML. Still, it'd feel wrong to not post about this somewhere.
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Not a Great Day So Far....

Image: fuzzy bee
A great picture for a kind of terrible day so far.
It started in Urgent Care. It's two week to the day that I went down hard with that cold. I've been coughing a lot since and yesterday, at a family get together, I would take in a breath when I started to laugh at something, get seized by a wheezing cough and then gulp for air for several seconds before regaining the ablity to breathe. It was really scary. I was also coughing REALLY hard.
The doctor at Urgent Care had me take some chest x-rays to rule out pnuomia, of course, and when those came back clear declared that she suspected an upper respitory infection. So, I now have antibiotics which I'll be taking with breakfast and dinner. Fun times! But, as she so subtly said, "Well, with your asthma things can... turn quickly." Yeah, that's not ominous.
And... now, my phone won't turn on. Like at all. My cellphone is just sitting here, no matter how hard or how long I push on the "on" button, it just sits there. I'd been having some trouble earlier, but like it now seems to have gone into complete NOPE.
So, yeah, I guess it's a Monday all right.I sure hope you're doing better!
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